Keily's Chronicles: Part 2 - Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

As some might have recalled I sent some very angry words towards Severus and Draco through the use of Kenya's blog. Well, they had been well worth it and I am not ashamed of them! In fact, they ended up getting the exact response that I wanted from Severus during the first few days of worrying about him. He called me and we talked for hours. I don't think I ever cried, while yelling at the speaker phone so much in my entire life...not even when I suffered messy break-ups.

And Severus...he had been a good sport about all of it. He promised me that he would come back safe and sound...that he would write me letters, so all I would have to do was be patient for them. I told them in no certain terms what he could do with his waiting and his letters and such. You could guess how unhappy I was with him...how scared I had been to wake-up in a place I wasn't used to without him or Draco around...

And when I finally managed to calm down...I told him how much I missed him and how much I wanted him to come home. Of course, I had been blubbering on the phone at the time, so I'm quite sure that he hadn't heard a damn word that I said to him.

And then he had to go and say that stupid, foolish thing!

"Thank you for walking with me...on my road to redemption." he said. "Albus used to tell me...that such a road is a long and lonely one, but...I'm glad that while I walked it...I got to meet you."

Predictably, I cried some more like the little ninny that I was.

And it wasn't until after the phone...a day or two after the phone call at least...I really, really, REALLY realised what I had said to him that day. Or at least...tried to say. And Severus, if you're reading this, well...I suppose you've a right to call me a 'silly sentimental Slytherin child' now. I love him. It's as simple as that. I tried very hard not to. I really did try. I didn't want to fall for a man who might have passed for my father...I didn't want to be involved with someone at all, not after the break-up I had a while ago because I wanted to be free of commitment...And yet.

It happened. Funny thing, love is. I had been infatuated before...when I knew him simply as the irritable git who lived in the dungeons of Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. I adored him when he started to live with me...

And only just realised that I practically loved him at first sight when I helped him and Draco into my home so I could treat their wounds...You really don't know what you've got until you've lost it. And I lost it and I have the distinct feeling that I won't be getting it back.

Well...do you know what an Asian girl does when she's depressed about love? We go do karaoke! And here's an appropriate, lovey-dovey song for you!

1000 Words
by Jade from Sweetbox

I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily
I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me
Far too easily
"Save your tears cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore
To hide the pain when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart
Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings
And a thousand words
One thousand confessions
Will cradle you
Making all of the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever
The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can't forget
I still relive that day
"You've been there with me all the way"
I still hear you say
"Wait for me I'll write you letters"
I could see how you stammered with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore to hide the doubt
When I turn back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait
But now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late
Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though we can't see I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings
Oh a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will cradle you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever
Oh a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home and back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings ohhh
And a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll cradle you
Turning all of the lonely years to only days
They'll hold you forever